As I start writing it is 8 am, 69 degrees and overcast with a big drench headed our way. Its a perfect day to dedicate to some serious keyboard time. Plus.. I no longer have to worry much about any interruptions that require me to drive someone somewhere.
That right, my daughter finally has her wheels on the ground. All 4 of them. Peaceful, radiant, grounded and ready to start expanding. Im not just talking about her having her drivers licence either. Her short life has been spent fighting some serious ills. Autoimmune issues have crippled her and primarily attacked her ankles. She now has the tools to repress that. A year on her feet now and only one little flare when she ate a tomato. How huge it is to be mobile. But those terrible early years have effected her stride and carriage. I don't expect she will ever be a runner but Lord how good it is to see her moving and dancing. She has kind of put down the pole. I may have been judged by some for buying my daughter a stripper pole but it was therapeutic and allowed for her to support her ankles and develop upper body strength. An interesting aspect of both mine and Willows arthritis has been a developmental tendency to walk on our toes, thus feeding into how we carry ourselves. Anyway, shes moving on but the pole remains up for any of us wanting to take an occasional whirl. That of course has not been me lately but more on my wrist later.
As if that has not been enough for her to contend with growing up, around jr. high she also started to display signs of what we only recently had diagnosed as the more extreme version of bipolar. It was not an easy thing for her (or any of us ) to contend with but she has made it through the worst and now, with the right supports in place, she is experiencing a previously unknown sense of peace.
And Im experiencing tears of relief.
My wrist is healing well. a plate, 8 screws and a pin all told. What an interesting process. I know that having this injury has sucked but it has also been fascinating. On so many levels.
1. Just the physical process...How the body (and in particular the autoimmune system) responds to a physical trauma. I knew I was no danger so I kept myself very calm and managed the pain very well and just observed what my body was doing. Tylenol is amazing for certain pains.
2. I was running backwards when it happened. And metaphorically this applied to the place I was at in regards to business development. I was working really fast towards an outcome I had not yet fully visualized. It took falling down to turn my perspective around. I needed to slow down and work things backwards. All of that is coming along but more about that in a minute.
3. Bone Doctors are the wood workers of the medical field.
4. The pain of a broken bone is less painful than the pain of arthritis. This has been a humbling realization. And has given me a reference to understand the size and density of what I've had to packed around on my back.
So rather than make this already long story any longer.. Im going to wrap up this topic and just say... Ive unpacked a lot, learned a lot, processed a lot, released a lot, and am now ready to turn my attention to moving forward at a reasonable pace towards a goal that looms close.
Now.. hehe.. to talk about the fun stuff.
Where to start? There are two parts to the equation that need separate types of attention and development. The first is "Here to There".. the business itself. What is the outcome I want to strive towards? How do I support that with my steps now? And then there is the development of me as a coach and my programs. I had a hard time separating out the two initially. Now that I have, the processes have become clearer and simpler to contend with.
So just some quick notes first... Sept 20 is the Here To There official opening. Sept 21 starts my first sessions. H2T will start as a membership based center. At the heart of our service lies the idea that "A persons journey to health and wellness begins first and foremost at home and around the kitchen table." As such, we will start by offering lifetime (For the duration of the business) memberships with enrollment in a three month " combative cooking" course. The current benefits to be received with this special membership is access to the centers physical resources (Art, sewing, reading/ meditation space, etc) during posted hours. Membership also entitles participants with deep discounts. We are starting out small and running things out of the home but the plan is to eventually have an actual center where we will host healing retreats and special events (Offering yurts and rooms) in addition to providing nutritional emotional and other forms of service. I also expect we will build in a hiking trail and maybe a disc golf course. I also envision it as being self sustaining (Or as close as possible) with a few bison or water buffalo, goats, pigs and large garden. Plus just having all the benefits of Vermont at our disposal. I plan to create a heaven on earth.
At the end of July I am sitting for an the International Health Coach Certification. I am working on my programs and getting the center set up. I have quite a bit of studing to do. And a lot of other things.. best I wrap this up an get going.
I had been thinking that I needed to leave this blog space for good as I moved forward with my new incarnation as Coach V. However, after a false start and with a clearer perspective, I have decided that I am not moving from here. "Coach V" is here as a result of who I have been. This blog has offered me an outlet though all the hard times..not to bitch.. doing so would be counter productive.. but to celebrate the joy and beauty (and sometimes absolute weirdness) It has been my coping mechanism through it all ,as well as being a tool for me to share these moments with far flung family and friends. However, I will be going through and archiving some of the posts before turning up the volume here. I may adjust the name a little as well.
Time to get some loose ends tied together. Time to grind. But before I go.. Spring hasn't been all bad. It has also been quite beautiful! Here are some photos!
